Bench Warrant, OMG what do i do??

Ok so I live in New York State, I was having trouble keeping the bills paid and like an idiot I got caught selling marijuana at the mall, they lowered Posession and Attempt to Sell to something called "Disorderly Conduct" which was a $250 fine and 100 hours community service. This was in like September. Anyway I finally convinced a family member to lend me the money to pay the fine and the CS was due February 1st, but here's the catch. My son was born in Texas with all kinds of health problems and they didn't expect him to make it so in October I rushed down to Texas to be with him and the family and fight Child Protective Services from putting him in third party care (the mother is a deadbeat drug addict). I just got back (loan from my father, I was stuck down there I only wanted to stay like a month) and my CS was due on the 1st. I called and asked what was the deal with it and they said there's a BENCH WARRANT and I have to come turn myself in! I'm so scared what do I do? I can't go to jail, I went for 3 days one time and it was the worst hell I could ever imagine (except for a few "wife and best friend" incidents). I'm not a troublemaker I just ****** up and I need help. I'm terrified I can't sleep I can't think of anything but this. What do I do? How do I avoid jail? What's going to happen to me?